Jägermeister

This is nothing but a never televised cinematographic experience

the touch of the procrastination of sadness

there I stand as the moron in front of the screen (of memory)

to look at her picture

this is not a poem

this is me in the other side pulling my hair up

contorting my body trying to reach the tip of my toe

in RETROSPECTIVE

We rewind this tape

there I came with my funny dances

tried to move our soul and body up

I couldn’t

I was never able to produce

such a silly song to make your body smile with freshness

a cup of coffee

a box of cigarettes

a movie

a sandwich

a pair of high heels

a brand new lipstick

a wonderbra

a bottle of perfume

those poppyseeds carefully sprinkled on your pretzels

the deepest kiss

No, there’s no shame that we could talk about and you know it!

There’s no selfishness on the table

I was able to never sleep

I was able to look at you forever as the moron in front of the screen

I could never get the cheapest ring. Two necklaces, I did. And a kick shoved up my arse.

That’s since I got used to all you could give to me: Silence and nudity, thanks God it wasn’t Sense and Sensibility!

I felt always rich.

You know it’s never been easy to this moron to get some of the warmth of protection

I felt always over mistaken

though I made a thousand movies you disliked and dismissed every single one, didn’t you?

Lord, was it that because I was so harsh on you or is it that it is more comfortable for men to establish shallow relationships and you got bored of this ironically profound intensity?

Was it that because I’m this moron front of the screen wishing to see my picture right where I left it, that little note that told you I got a thousand smiles delight with all the empire shit i tried to give

or was it just because I’m just a bitch

that never gave you real friendship

since I never sang those silly songs to you

or tell me

if it was that I never carried a tiny bottle of Jägermeister on my purse?

Sorry all I had inside was love.

I’m really sorry I was never

that precious thing to pursue.

This was nothing but a never televised cinematographic experience

a moron in front of the screen

that will never get high with Jägermeister.